I've been blogging since I was a freshman in high school. I guess it's been a good 7 years since I wrote my first entry. That seems so long ago. I decided to get a new blog and leave my livejournal behind since my entries were rife with entries about teenage angst, grammatical errors, and other embarrassing writing disasters.
It's currently around 4 weeks into the school year. It's weird realizing that I am actually an upperclassman now. I'm not sure how I feel about such changes. It seems horrifying leaving the security of college life. At the same time, I'm pretty sure that I'm ready to have more independence and leave behind the shit ton of work that I always have. I can't imagine waking up everyday for the routine 9-5 job but I also can't imagine continuing procrastinating about the paper that's due in approximately 8 hours (yes, that's happened too many times to count).
I guess it's about time that I find out what I want to do with my life. It's funny how no one has ever actually said that to me. It's always been, "Don't worry about it, you have time." Well that's simply not true. I'm pretty sure I should some idea where I'll be 5 years from now. It's funny how in high school I was more prepared to answer questions like that than I am now.
I've grown up with the SATS always looming over my head. Ever since I entered school I knew that I had to study well and do well on the SATS. Why? So I can get into a great college. Clearly I'm past that stage in my life. The SATS have long passed and I can barely even remember what I got on the 3 sections. The problem is that no one ever told me what I should do after I get into college. Granted I should think for myself and determine what I want to do with my life myself, but when you've been brought up in such a regimented environment it's a little difficult to have so much freedom. I know that my next step is either Grad School or finding a career. But study what in Grad School? Can I handle studying for so many more years? If not grad school, where will I find a job? In what field? Where do I start looking?
Too bad there's not some sort of life guide/map. It would definitely make things more convenient.
